I have a lot of problems inside me with mental lately. I have been hospitalized 12 times since 2o02 when I told everyone I was molested. It has been a hard road for me and It is something I am trying to overcome. I have the problem of liking to cut on my wrists when I get upset and it calms me down. I used to take all kinds of medicine but come off of them at 18. I am doing good but am struggling lately with anniversary coming near. Its like this every year around same time. I have tried overdosing, cutting, hanging, drowning, suffocation, and even eletrocution. I cant just do it. The cutting takes a lot out of me and it helps me think. I do it a lot to help get things off my mind. That is why I am writing this blog so I can find better alternatives. I need help but I cant afford it and kind of tired of going to hospitals. If my mom new I was cutting again she would flip. I mean damn. She always says I am an attention seeker and its not like that. Lately with job outlook not so good for here I am watching movies and staying at home a lot. Yall I can always use friends to talk to so dont hesitate to talk to me on myspace or email at gardencitystud2008@yahoo.com or yahoo messenger at gardencitystud2008 or aim at sccoasterfan.
Peace Out
Rodney
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