Halloween 2008

I woke up at 12:30 pm. I was all ready to go to haunted trail that night. I was so amped. I was supposed to go with some friends to two more but they were arses so I didnt. I ended up calling my friend Tyler and we went to Dr. Screams Haunted Forest. It was awesome. It was me, tyler, tracy, and will. We had a blast and I screamed. I am terrified of clowns and at the end there were a shitload of clowns. I was hyperventilating. It was a 7 out of 10. It could have been a lot better if they would have had more people in it. Me and tyler waited over an hour and a half to get in. The line was outrageous and costs 12 dollars. I was like damn. I had a ball though. I am too old to trick or treat so that was all I had to do. It starts off with 10-16 people in a group and ours had 16. You go and get in a huge ambulance. It was cramped then they take you out in woods and stop a few times to let chainsaw guys get in. It was so scary and i bumped my head and grabbed a few asses along the way. LOL. Then you go into woods section and walk. It was really good for their first year being combined with Invasion of Horrors and moving to a new location. I would have reccommended it to everyone.

Peace out

Rodney

MY BFF

When I worked at KFC I became friends with a girl named Summer. I know my sisters name is that also. I loved her only friend wise. We would walk around and sing I Kissed A Girl and bust out laughing. We mad the job more bearable and fun. I miss her. She moved to some town in upstate sc near where my hometown is. I wont see her for a while and will miss her dearly. I am posting pics on here to help remember allthe fun we had on our TACO BELL FIASCO.

aww aint we so cute.

we are adorable.

omg we almost had a wreck

go go go

vogue

come on vogue

this is why im hot

let me try to deepthroat it

omg this is a weird pic

aww

BC OF YOU I NEVER STRAY TOO FAR FROM THE SIDEWALK.

LABRYINTH WE WATCHED IT THAT DAY.

LICK LICK LICK

COME ON VOGUE

Suicidal

I have a lot of problems inside me with mental lately. I have been hospitalized 12 times since 2o02 when I told everyone I was molested. It has been a hard road for me and It is something I am trying to overcome. I have the problem of liking to cut on my wrists when I get upset and it calms me down. I used to take all kinds of medicine but come off of them at 18. I am doing good but am struggling lately with anniversary coming near. Its like this every year around same time. I have tried overdosing, cutting, hanging, drowning, suffocation, and even eletrocution. I cant just do it. The cutting takes a lot out of me and it helps me think. I do it a lot to help get things off my mind. That is why I am writing this blog so I can find better alternatives. I need help but I cant afford it and kind of tired of going to hospitals. If my mom new I was cutting again she would flip. I mean damn. She always says I am an attention seeker and its not like that. Lately with job outlook not so good for here I am watching movies and staying at home a lot. Yall I can always use friends to talk to so dont hesitate to talk to me on myspace or email at gardencitystud2008@yahoo.com or yahoo messenger at gardencitystud2008 or aim at sccoasterfan.

Peace Out

Rodney

October 27, 2008: My Stupid Cousin

I am so pissed. My 10 year old cousin eveyr time I go to see my grandmother and grandpa is there and she bigs the hell out of me. Well today I was playing with my other cousin he is 9. I was playing with him and she comes up behind me and grabs my hoodie and yanks. Well I heard it rip ad turned around and slapped her on the ground. She went inside crying. Ok for one thing I barely touched her but she is a beautiful fake cryer. So It pissed me off. Then I found out she came home sick a 11. It was 33o when this went down. She was up and jumpng around and everything. I heard her tell her brother she made herself throw up with her tongue. I was pissed. She did it on purpose. Then she goes and irritates the shit out of me. She calls me faggot and roseanne all the time and I wasnt even playing with her but her cousin. She gets yelled at and I had told my grandpa and he sent her inside. She still persisted. It just really pisses me off. Then my aut has nerve to say shes gonna arrest me. At this point I am like go ahead I dont give a shit anymore. I truly dont. I am a suicidal maniac and am always on edge lately. It is nearing the 6th anniversary of when I told the cops I was molestd and it is coming close to holidays. So I am upset lately and do stupid shit.


Hit yall latr

Rodney

Jobs

I have had a hard year. When I turned 18 on Jan. 15th I moved out and went and stayed with friends in Norman, Oklahoma near Oklahoma City. I got to see the bombing memorial and I cried because it is so sad to see that.

I left home because my parents do not agree with my gay lifestyle and that I am open about it. I came back and stayed at my grandmas in Ware Shoals, SC for a couple of weeks before I found out the guy who molested me when I was a kid had passed away. I never got to go tell him I forgave him and it upset me because I would never get the chance. I tried to commit suicide for the 10th time and it took its toll on me and my counselor said I needed to move.

I packed up my stuff and jumped in the car. I took all my savings and came to Myrtle Beach, SC. When I arrived I rented a hotel room for two weeks and started looking for a job. I found one working at Kangaroo gas station in Murrells Inlet, SC. I then moved into my grandmas house in Surfside and slept on the couch for two months till I saved up enough to get my own place.

I had to go see family in March of 08 and and my job wouldn't let me have time off so I left and I regret that because I loved working at the station because I was pulling in 50 plus hours a week. I then came back and went and started working at Pirateland Campground like I did last summer on third shift. I also picked up second shift at Family Kingdom Amusement Park.

Drama erupted in May at Pirateland with my grandpa and family so we all got fired. It wasn't my fault. I also had just left Family Kingdom because I had started online school and could not get all work done with the hours I was working. I regretted that because I was jobless again.

The day after I got fired I went to Kentucky Fried Chicken in Surfside and got hired. I loved working there but was there 2 1/2 months before I was fired because I was accused of starting drama and the asst manager offered me a position at her husbands store in Georgetown but I couldn't afford the gas to go back and forth.

Then I went and applied at Wilco Gas station in Surfside Beach and got hired there. I was stupid and got fired from there also. I got drunk one night and was still awake when morning came and supposedly called in and said I was hungover. Since I am 18 and underage I was considered a liability and fired for it.

Then I called on a friend. I started working at a timeshare place. I was selling vacations to Myrtle Beach for cheap prices. I was working for Festiva Resorts. I was let go with half of the others because of the bailout made one of the resorts go bankrupt so they downsized.

I have come to the conclusion that life sucks down here and I cant win for losing. I love the beach and my friends but fear of having to move back upstate were I cant be open to my true self. I really don't want to do it. If anyone has any opinions please email me at gardencitystud2008@yahoo.com

Rodney Rogers